I've been thinking a lot about life lately. Mostly, because of the end of the school year, and all the changes that are happening suddenly. I don't like change. They don't understand why I don't want to be a Senior. Today was the last day of school for the class of 2012. I'm in the class of 2013. How did I ever get to be this old?
The worst part about this year, even though it was absolutely amazing, was that my camera broke before the school year started. I feel like a ton of awesome things have happened and the memories haven't been preserved at all.
I feel like I'm ranting right now, but it's leading up to something.
So.. I didn't really realize this whole year that I have quite a few friends who are seniors and that they would be leaving at the end of the school year. It was a long school day Friday today, the seniors last day of school. Class got out and I was waiting for one of my best senior friends to come to her locker so I could say bye to her, until graduation, which is in a week. And then it hit me like a ton of bricks that this was her last day of high school and sort of the beginning of the end for me and I cried a lot for the next hour.
I don't want to be a Senior. I don't want my friends to leave. I don't want things to change. They're great the way they are.
When I was younger I remember when my sister started to drive and I thought, wow! I wish I was old enough to drive! that would be the coolest! I wanted to grow up too quickly. And I did. And I wish that I had enjoyed life more when I was younger rather than always thinking things would be better in the future. Well, I do drive now, I am older, and even though I'm only 17, I feel like this school year has been the greatest time of my life. I don't want it to be over. What if next year isn't as good?
I guess the most important thing to remember is what God says to His people in Jeremiah 29:11, "For I know the plans I have for you," says the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future." I know from the past that things do eventually get bettter. So even though the road ahead looks rough I know that God will pull me through in the end, just like He always has.
